( newaij. )

Monday, June 11, 2007

didnt come online these few days cuz was too tired from intensive prac then come home jiu sleep alr. cannot wake up for today's morning prac also =x lol. anyway, we are flying in 12 days JIAYOU!! haven packed my stuffs yet also. intensive pracs are tiring and sometimes boring, but its usually fun cuz there's lotsa fun pple in co wahaha but sadly, most of them are yr3 or graduated alr )): SO SADDDDD!! haiiiii )):

was discussing about whether i like my course anot ydae, and my ans is OBVIOUSLY NOT. i really feel like changing course now but its like very waste of time cuz i wasted 2 mths and if i change course, i'll waste another year haii, but i really dont like this course. during these 2 mths, i feel that i have no progression in my hmwks, assignments. completing hmwk & assignments is just for the sake of handing up work. WHY IS IT LIDDAT!! tskkk i really dont like my life now. my classmates are great but not my course!! how siaa!! can anyone brainwash me to make me like my course and not wasting my 3 yrs in this course?? seriously, i dont even know what am i going to do after i graduate. and now, even if i wanna change course, i also dont know what im going to take. THIS FEELING SUCKS!!

is co taking too much of my time?? its like im taking a diploma in co rather than taking a diploma in dmd. erhu lessons, nypco and csco. i cant take lessons every 2weeks as the laoshi said if i wanna take lessons every 2weeks, she rather not have this kind of student, cuz there wont be any progression AND I DONT SEE MYSELF PROGRESSING EVEN IM TAKING LESSONS EVERY WEEK NOW!! whats the point?? im just wasting my parents' hard earned money every month and its not a small sum too. although we dont have any financial difficulty yet, but i really feel very guilty liddat.

why i've become liddat?? why can't i be like sec4 when i can handle both cca and studies at a time.

ok this is quite a negative post laa, haha but sorry to friends who have alr read it until here lol. sorry to spoil your mood thou. i'll try to manage my time properly.